We are an organization that is working to home the homeless–whom we call VIPs–in the Greater Bath Maine area.

When I was a young single mother with two children under 10 years old I developed breast cancer.

I knew from reading Louise Hay’s book “Heal Your Body” that the mental cause was deep resentment relating to nurturing. She always tells us to think about the part of the body affected by illness or injury and in terms of its function. The breasts are for nurturing.

So I quickly scanned my life to see where there might be a problem with nurturing. I could quickly see that I was nurturing others very well–BUT NOT MYSELF!

 

  • I was the single mother of two young children.
  • I was the founder/director of  a 42 child federally funded Montessori day care center for shoe factory workers,
  • I had a  14 person staff to manage.
  • I was working 70 hours a week on average.
  • I had numerous low-income day care parents to nurture
  • I was on four social service boards.
  • I was the chairperson of two.
  • I had a needy boyfriend.
  • I was taking women into my own home who had gone homeless.
  • I was busy organizing a cooperative housing project for some of  the families who used the day care center

…And I was wracked with guilt all the time that I was not doing enough for others.

Could this have anything to do with the fact that I had experienced paternal incest from ages 1-13? Duh!

Somehow, sexual abuse leaves many of its recipients with deep feelings of guilt–projections from the abusive parent? I don’t know. But I do know, now, that guilt sews the seeds of all kinds of life-problems –not just health issues. It brings financial problems and homelessness in its wake oftentimes as well.  And I experienced that a few times over my life as well–despite having been raised in a solidly middle class home that always provided enough food, shelter and physical warmth, but very little emotional warmth. Suicidal feelings and even a few attempts marred my life as well.

My father ignored me most of the time–except when he was sexually exploiting me in the middle of the night. I learned to dissociate during these horrifically traumatic episodes. Because of that I completely “forgot” all of the abuse until I was age 38!

The first hint I got of the incest was during a “Rebirthing” session. There was a huge terrifying black male being loomed over me. He was going to take my soul to the other side of the Universe for ever and ever. I stopped breathing, turned blue, my heart stopped (vegeled) and I literally was dead for a few minutes!

 The person who was leading me through this exercise was not well-trained and unprepared for this. I have since learned how to do a similar process myself–but SAFELY.  It CAN be useful if done with full precautions. But in any case, I suddenly came to, started breathing and screaming. I had never been so soul-terrified in my life. I thought it had something to do with my current boyfriend–with sex. But I couldn’t connect the dots that led back to my father.

Then a couple of months later the person who had led me in the dangerous rebirthing session urged me strongly to take an “est” seminar (Werner Erhardt’s controversial personal growth seminar). She had stopped doing rebirthing after our dangerous debacle. Now she had moved onto “est.” I refused her invitation several times, but she and her new est friends were highly trained in never taking no for an answer. They even gave me the course for free!

So I went to Boston to do the weekend “training.”During one session one of his male “trainers” hypnotized all 450 members of the audience and “suggested” that we return to a traumatic event.

WHAM! I was right there–back with the HUGE black being who was the essence of all that was EVIL in the Universe–the same being I had encountered in the rebirthing session. This was again deep soul terror. I screamed and jerked backwards to get away, and literally fell over backwards in my chair. I suddenly knew that the being was my father and that he had sexually molested me. It was unbelievable to me–and yet I was sure it was true. And I was also sure that my mother had known about the abuse and had allowed it to go on for 13 years! That was almost harder to take than the abuse itself.

As difficult as these two traumatic recalls were, they were SO worth it. I cannot explain how cathartic it was to suddenly know the reason behind so many of my difficulties in life. I did a lot of self education. I just wish I had had more sympathetic and wise people around me, to support me, when I recalled this important information.

The events that those two incidents helped me to recall were directly associated with the development of breast cancer in me. For it was in my early childhood that I developed the belief that to survive I had to be of service to others—to give them whatever they wanted. To put others first and myself last—jus to survive.

 I was not only being used sexually by my father, but emotionally by mother, who used me as a sounding board for her endless woes with her alcoholic husband—my father.

But the belief that I had to allow myself to be used by others was the belief I developed. It was still active when I was a young mother running the day care center.  But, while it MAY have helped me to survive my childhood, it was an incorrect belief to carry into adulthood, I now know.

I now believe that it is crucial to one’s mental emotional and physical health to put one’s self first. It is enlightened self-interest. It is like the story of how passengers on airlines are instructed to put oxygen masks on themselves first, then their children. We can’t be of service to others unless we are taking care of ourselves first. But at the time I was running the day care center I did not understand this. And although I was consciously not aware of any anger or resentment towards all of the hundreds of other people I was nurturing, some subconscious part of me was most definitely feeling that. I had had no childhood.  I had gone directly to caring for others and now as an adult my inner child was screaming for attention. But I thought it was wrong to pay attention to her. So I ignored her feelings just as my parents had –and ended up with breast cancer.

But I did heal it! How did I do it?

While it was helpful to uncover the terrible truth beneath my guilt and the terrible pressure I put on myself to help others–especially children (projection)–I do not believe it is necessary.  I really only needed to feel the awful feelings of over-doing it — right now.

So, as I stated, the cancer was brought on by the fact that I was caring for everyone else but my self–my own inner child. She rarely had any fun. And my adult masculine side (which everyone has) was having FUN achieving his goals in the material world. There I was a success. I was helping others. I had power to make things better–including being appointed by the governor to the Maine Human Services Council. On that I was a member of the 3 person finance committee. We had the power to say yay or nay to all of the many millions of dollars that Title IV-A brought to non-profit organizations n the state. This included day care centers, nursing homes, hospitals etc. We had responsibility for all of the non-profits in the state of Maine. Through that position I was able to help out low income people in powerful ways. So my male achiever- self was happy as a clam.

But then cancer arrived on the scene. I had studied enough spiritual healing to know that I need to respect it as a sacred messenger. It was a tall order, but I did manage to find a place in me that trusted that this was true—and that this cancer- messenger was actually a blessing!

So, I knew enough to give thanks for the messenger.

But first before trying to go there, I had allowed myself  all of my feelings, including  the terror and sadness I was feeling about the cancer—and about my life! This took some time –and many tissues.

 But eventually I was able to thank The Great Mother (my name for the Creator) for the situation. I blessed it with unconditional love–well sometimes anyways–other times it was more like just barely acceptance. lol. But it turned out to be enough!

Here are some of the specific ways I changed my belief about serving others:

1.     I started using an affirmation–a mantra-like positive statement– “I deserve to put myself first. I deserve to have childlike fun and REST!”

2.     Then I acted on it. I got off all the social service boards. And I resigned my position as director of the day care center.

3.     I took a leap of faith that if I let go of the false security that a good job provides, that I would find a more real security in being in alignment with my deepest Self.

4.      I began to sleep a lot ,

5.     I continued to allow feelings to come up freely.

6.     AND I LEARNED HOW TO HAVE REAL FUN AGAIN!

 In fact, that was when I brought making art back into my life. I had been an Art/psych major in college, but had dropped the art when I got married. After the divorce I was still “too busy” for such “frivolous” activities. But now I realized it was not frivolous at all. It was important and crucial to the happiness f my inner child that I allow her a little art play time most every day.

I also started playing the piano again–just improvising freely–as I did when I was a child–making up songs. I also started to spend more time in Nature–just walking looking, touching, smelling, swimming, skating–whatever my body enjoyed. At first I would find myself thinking about my problems a lot while I walked. But I soon realized that was killing the joy that was available to me. So I learned to focus just on the beauty of the nature around me and less on my negative thoughts. I developed a sort of walking “quiet-mind” meditation.

It may sound like a lot to do–but it really took little effort. And I healed very quickly. The tumor disappeared within a few weeks.

 And perhaps best of all, I discovered that I really could rely on The Universe–The Great Mother–to support me while I let go of earning money. There was enough support for me and my kids to live on while I recovered my balance. And then I was able to go back to working in a much more relaxed, reasonable and gentle way.

My kids are 42 and 45 now. I am 67.  And the cancer has never returned.

Soon after my self-healing I began to do counseling work and to share my self-healing process with many others. And it worked for many of them too! Even with so-called “terminal” cancer. So I have found my true work–thanks to the cancer–and the work was not just caring for others–as I love to do–but it is first of all caring for myself!

How to Prevent or Heal Painful Cracks at the Tips of Your Fingers

2/26/13

There is a mental cause behind every physical affliction, and it is the root cause of that problem. If you can heal the mental cause, the physical symptom will disappear. This is true for cancer or for a hangnail. It is good to pay attention to small things like hang nails or cracks in one’s finger tips, because, left unattended they can lead to larger and larger problems–as the mental core issue attracts more and more associated negative beliefs. These beliefs literally start as a  small snow ball and can grow into an avalanche if they are allowed to remain in the consciousness.

So today I am addressing the issue of cracks in the finger tips around the nails, which I get occasionally and have found to be a stubborn issue for me. They keep coming back as I continue to shy away from the permanent solution in my mind, that is calling me.

I have traced the issue to a fear of making art or being creative in a free and playful, child-like way. That is to say, free form expression in 2-D or 3-D formats. Art is very important in my life–and I suspect it is important for many people. As children we all love playing with paint on paper–or walls. We love drawing. We love sculpting in sand, mud, clay, Playdough –anything at all.

When we did that we moved into closer connection with the Divine Creator at the center of our being. We are all Divine in our core self. However, as we “grow-up” in this culture, at least, we move further and further away from our Sacred Essence, Our Entity Self or our Higher Self.

Instead of allowing us to remain in and to nurture our right brain hemisphere activities, school, family, church community and society all push us to shift over to using the left brain hemisphere more and more exclusively. Women succumb to this less than men do. But in our Western Culture, almost all of us grow up to be left brain dominant.

This is harmful to us. It lessens our happiness and our intelligence. When we come in we are “trailing clouds of glory” as Wordsworth put it. But as we “grow-up” (a misnomer) instead of building on those clouds of glory, we eschew them! We cut them off in our children, our pupils and ourselves.

Making art is a wonderful way to keep the right brain alive active and growing in power. It does not mean we have to leave off with educating the left brain. It simply means that we would do better to enhance and educate both –but with an emphasis on the RIGHT. The right brain is the tool through which w access the part of our mind that creates happiness. It connects us with our Child Self and our Divine Self. It connects us to wisdom and information far beyond anything that can be conveyed through the left hemisphere–including computers and the internet!

To be happy human beings we need to nurture our FREE FORM CREATIVITY.

When we do this not only are our emotions healed, but our bodies as well.

When we use our hands to make art, or our bodies to free form dance, we are connecting with our Divine Self and our energy really begins to flow, through our hands and through our bodies.

When we are not using our hands in this way the energy begins to slow down and a slide towards necrosis. It is a form of scleroderma, in my mind. Literally, life begins to ebb away from our fingers. As it does this it leaves dead calloused tissue behind it which shrinks and dries–and then cracks. These cracks expose raw unprotected tissue underneath in the dermis. Here is the definition of the dermis from infoplease.com :

Dermis — You’ll find your nerve endings in this layer of skin. These nerve endings work with your brain and nervous system and allow you to feel things and react to them.Your dermis is also full of blood vessels and home to your oil glands.

The way to understand the messages the body is sending to read the physical symptom as a symbol of a deeper mental-emotional situation. In this instance this newly exposed extremely sensitive layer of physical and emotional skin is your way of allowing yourself to FEEL things and to REACT to them.

So I believe that when this layer is exposed on my fingers it is a message that I am not allowing myself to feel my inner child’s pain at not being allowed to playfully make art. Or to PLAY period!  The message is extremely important. Much more so than the intellect understands. The intellect and left brain are all about work and making money and looking outward rather than inward.

Now, I have tried doing a compromise with my inner child–like making crafts or doing sewing, or using my finger to type creative words on a page. But none of these do the trick. My Inner Child wants down and dirty, no holds barred PLAY. She wants to connect with our Entity Self and allow him to play too.

Art teachers, while well-meaning, often give too much instruction to children about their art making. Some even go so far as to make marks themselves on their pupils art! The teacher should even be loath to give and assignment. Her job should be simply to create a time and space and materials for her students to play with their creativity. Some children are stultified even by first grade, and so sometimes a very general “assignment” can be helpful to a child like that. The teacher might say, “What d you love to look at? Or simply “What do you love?” The child might respond, ” Cat’s!” So then she could ask the child if they would like to paint a cat.

These are questions we can ask ourselves as adult when trying to get back to our inner child.

In addition to this most basic healing regimen for painful cracked finger tips, there are purely physical level treatments that can assist. But for me, they do not do the job if I am not paying attention to the underlying psycho-spiritual cause. So, in addition to the psycho-spiritual healing–making free-form art–I find that these few physical aids can help too:

  • in the winter, keep a humidifier going, or a place a pan of water on the stove and set it to simmer. Moisture in the air is good not only for the fingers but the lungs and immune system as well.
  • use rubber gloves for washing dishes
  • after your shower, while your hands are sift, cut off the dead calloused skin around the tips f the fingers with some sharp nippers.
  • then have some crushed or ground up ASPIRIN ( I buy the big cheapie bottle for this) in a little take-out sauce cup in the bathroom. Wet your hands and then rub the tiny sharp bits vigorously all over your hands, paying special attention to the finger tips. The aspirin will not only exfoliate the dead skin, but the acetylsalicylic acid in it (originally from willow trees) will soften the callouses very nicely.
  • then follow up with a good rinse and dry and an application of an excellent hand cream. I like to make my own out of aloe vera gel, Heal-All Salve, liquid vitamin E (empty a few capsules), and some good oil–like olive or walnut oil. Rub it in well. And each time you wash your hands, apply more of this salve, especially to the tips of your fingers.
  • wear gloves or mittens out-of-doors.

That’s it. I hope you found this Metaphysical/Physical information helpful. If you did please leave a comment. Thanks!

Peace and Blessings,

Brenda

Black Holes and Vortices in Physics and Metaphysics

I have lately become fascinated by the idea of black holes as vortices and as vehicles for transformation. I recently watched a program about Black Holes on a science program on NOVA and heard them state that it is now known that all galaxies have, at their center, a black hole, which appears to be “feeding” on everything around it. Stars, planets, comets, nebulae and even light are sucked into the vortex that seems to comprise this black hole. As things circle the hole they speed up–then suddenly disappear into the hole/vortex.

This description was accompanied by eery music. I suppose it could be frightening to contemplate such an end. However, I had a different reaction to it. In thinking about each star, planet and even photon as a unit or gestalt of consciousness, I suddenly KNEW that these black holes were passageways between realities. THEY ARE SIMPLY PLACES OF TRANSFORMATION!

At our own center there is also such a vortex–as described by Esther Hicks (as “Abraham” in their latest book, The Vortex: How the Law of Attraction Assembles All Cooperative Relationships. The book points out that we are all vortices of incredible energy–in our essence–our Source Self (Entity Self or “God”).

Even before I drew that book to myself I had been having one revelation after another concerning vortices being vehicles of transformation:

• Many years a go I discovered that by going deep into my own center through meditation–as if descending down through a vortex– I came into an awareness of the eternal part of my own being (my Entity Self) which was “deep” within my psyche and also deep within my body– located at about the second chakra. As I continued to meditate on that expanded part of myself I began to transform into it!

• All of the chakras seem to be spinning vortices–traditionally described as spinning disks..

• I have heard many people report through near death experiences that when they “died” (transformed), they traveled from Earth Plane life, through a tunnel to another reality. Could this “tunnel” actually be the center of a vortex? From there they emerged into “heaven” or a place of Love, Light, Music and God. They often knew themselves to be One with God. The ultimate transformation!

• And from popular culture I recalled the movie “The Wizard of Oz,” which I believe was so very  popular because of its deeply spiritual theme of transformation. The tornado (vortex) was the vehicle that brought Dorothy into another realm where she underwent a realization of her own true power–one that she had had all along.

• A popular TV show in the 80’s–“Star Trek: The Next Generation”–created the idea of “worm holes” through which one could travel at tremendous speeds, across vast distances to a different reality. These worm holes were depicted as vortices.

• Simply falling asleep at night I often (as a child) had the feeling of my body rotating upon an axis as I descended into sleep–where I was transformed into a dreaming me who is just as real as the waking me.

• Again from popular culture, “Alice in Wonderland” is about a little girl who falls down a tunnel into another reality.

• From old Indo-European myths comes the tale of Mother Hulda, whose world is discovered by a girl who falls down a well.

• Sufi dancers spin to take themselves into altered mental states–and spiritual transformation.

• I once had a meditation in which I spoke with Enrico Fermi who told me  that UFO’s have a large spinning disk inside of the circular shell we see. He explained that if you spin anything fast enough it will gain a gravitational pull–and will also have qualities of “anti-gravity” (centrifugal and centripetal force.) The so-called “aliens” have learned to control these universal laws. Also, they are not from our physical reality–but from other realities which are non-physical.  The “aliens” have learned how to spin themselves into a vortex in which they transform/transport themselves into our reality. We can visit theirs, as well though– through the functions of the right hemisphere of the brain–which we use very little of in Western Culture. Although this is changing. Through use of the right hemisphere of the brain, and the slower brain-wave states and focused subtle intent, we can easily visit the other planets, stars and  realities which these “aliens” come from. We can perceive the richness there that our left brain and limited five senses (even with their mechanical extensions–can only perceives as rocks, fiery gases,  solar systems or galaxies spinning in space. Any person, using his/her right brain, can perceive that these “things” are actually all beings of consciousness who are living on different levels of spiritual development, living in other realities, but all transforming–contracting and expanding–through vortices –just as we do!

• Our lives could be thought of as tunnel/vortices, whereby the same issues come around and around periodically and we attempt to learn a bit more each time we encounter them again on the spiral.

There were many more revelations about vortices as vehicles for transformation, but I believe that physics and metaphysics or spirituality is coming closer and closer together. Every material “thing” or event in our physical Universe is simply an interpretation by our limited 5 senses and our  limited intellect of much a much vaster event or consciousness that we can only begin to become aware of –never mind comprehend–through our intuition or the right hemisphere of our brains. Unfortunately–the right hemisphere (or feminine mind) is not valued just now. It is “out of style.” But it will come back n fashion. And there are many who still subscribe to it.

But every “thing” that we perceive as being a only a thing–is actually a fully conscious being. The “thing” I perceive is actually just my own short-hand symbol that my intellect needs to use to relate to these beings that are beyond its comprehension. But my intuitive mind can and does comprehend and even communicate with these beings. “All That Is” is very likely one gigantic vortex.

So those things in the heavens that appear to be stars, planets, comets, nebulae, space dust, light–AND EVEN BLACK HOLES–are really fully conscious beings who are living lives and creating things with their consciousness–that is what the physical expansion of the Universe that the scientists have identified is really about. It is about the phenomenal rate of expansion of consciousness that is happening everywhere all the time at an incomprehensible speed. (Of course, in most realities time does not exist and so the word “speed” and even “expansion” are irrelevant in the larger reality. For everything is here and now.

But not only is there expansion, but also simultaneous contraction. The actual cosmos is made up of paradoxes, which our right brains are perfectly comfortable with but which are beyond the ken of our intellect or the range of the left hemisphere function.

So what I am exploring now is this relationship between our concept of “expansion” and “contractions. For even while the “Universe” –a conscious Being Itself”– and is exapanding, there is also at its center which calls everything home–into its center–constantly. And just as a skater contracts her arms towards her center in order to spin faster,  so too does contraction cause a greater spin–and according to Abraham (see Hicks) this increased speed brings about a stronger force of attraction. He states that positive thought that is in alignment with our Source Self (All That Is) allows us to jump onto this spinning wheel and to advance spiritually. To literally become more powerful in attaining that which desire. Negative thoughts produce negative events and these stimulate in us greater desire for something better–and to cause our vortex to spin faster–so the force of attraction is greater.

This reminds me of the meditation with Fermi, where I “got” that spinning something fast enough and contracting creates a gravitational pull toward the center.

I think it is generally understood in Metaphysics that “the center of the Universe is everywhere.” I am the center of the universe–and my feeling that I am is not egocentrism–for you are the center of the universe also. And the dot at the end of this sentence is conscious and feels that IT is the center of the Universe. And it is all true.

Quantum Physicist, Dr. Goswani has much to say about these sorts of things.  http://www.amitgoswami.org/

The following is an email dialogue between my friend Kate and I–about our magical experiences with wild animals, Dryads and stones– and my theories about why  they happen to us. We both make art and are on spiritual paths.

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Hi Kate:

Glad you liked my moose story Kate. [about finding myself surrounded by 5 moose in a wilderness preserve, while I was drawing a picture. I loved it!]
 I really want to go back to Baxter State Park this summer. Camp for a few days. It is a whole other world up there–wild. Very little man-vibe. Want to go?  I could rent a car. [neither of us own vehicles, despite living in the country].
I have embedded some more comments below Kate–in your email to me.

wow that is a really neat moose story. love it. so magical and esp since you were not afraid!

NO I WASN’T THE LEAST BIT AFRAID. I WAS THRILLED.
i had a deer experience like that.. i was trading hypno sessions with a young guy out on egret island
for a painting of his gfriend… we had gone to a field and had a session. he left and i went into a half sleep state and when i ‘came to’ deer were around me. felt like they were surrounding me, the memory, and it was really neat.
I HAD ANOTHER EXPERIENCE LIKE THAT. I WAS SITTING IN A FIELD MEDITATING…AND CAME TO WITH SEVERAL DIFFERENT KINDS OF ANIMALS AROUND ME… JUST LOOKING AT ME.  AS I WENT HIGHER INTO MY USUAL MIND-VIBE THEY LEFT.
I THINK    MEDITATION/HYPNO/ART-MAKING   PUTS US IN THE RIGHT HEMISPHERE OF THE BRAIN AND DOWN CLOSE TO THE THETA OR EVEN DELTA BRAIN WAVE STATES. I THINK THAT IS WHERE THE ANIMALS ARE ALL THE TIME.
THEY LOVE IT WHEN WE GO TO WHERE THEY ARE VIBE WISE!
I SUSPECT THAT ST. FRANCIS WAS ALWAYS IN A RIGHT BRAN STATE–WHICH IS WHY HE HAD BIRDS AROUND HIM SO MUCH–JUST LIKE YOU!
I THINK WE ARE DOING OK–VERY GOOD–ON OUR “DROPPED OUT” SPIRITUAL PATHS.
NOW THAT I KNOW WHAT I REALY WANT–THE DELICIOUS “FEELING TONES” OF BEING IN A RIGHT BRAIN STATE AND LIVING SIMPLY. I KNOW I CAN PULL THAT TO ME MORE AND MORE.
BEING WITH MOST PEOPLE PULLS ME OUT OF THAT. THEIR VIBE IS SO HYPER AND STRESSED.  SO I AM INCREASINGLY BEING MORE AND MORE “ALONE.” BUT ONLY IN A SNSE, FOR I AM FINDING MY “ENTITY SELF’ AND OTHER BEAUTIFUL BEINGS FROM OTHER REALITIES. SO NOT ALONE.
HERE’S ANOTHER STORY:  ONCE UPON A TIME… I WAS MEDITATING OUT IN THE WOODS IN WHITEFIELD. I WAS SITTING IN A “MAGICAL FEELING” GROVE OF  OAK TREES;  LEANING AGAINST A VERY ANCIENT HUGE OAK.  I WENT DOWN VERY DEEP THAT TIME AND  WHEN I CAME OUT OF IT …THERE WAS THIS LITTLE “DRYAD” –A TREE SPRIIT!! I AM PERFECTLY SERIOUS.
HE WAS A WOODY BROWN GNOME-LIKE BEING. AND HE WAS AS SURPRISED AS I THAT I COULD SEE HIM. HE SAID, “I THOUGHT YOU PEOPLE COULDN’T SEE US.” I REPLIED, “WE USUALLY CAN’T, BUT RIGHT NOW I CAN SEE YOU.” WE COMMUNICATED A LITTLE–MIND TO MIND YOU KNOW.
BUT  THEN I COULDN’T HOLD THE STATE OF MIND AND HE FADED FROM MY SITE. BUT AFTER THAT, WHEN I VISTED THAT SACRED GROVE, I ALWAYS GREETED HIM AND THE OTHERS THERE. I COULD SENSE OTHERS THERE TOO–AND NOT JUST DRYADS, BUT FAIRY PRESENCES AS WELL.
I WONDER WHAT OPENED THE PORTAL THAT DAY?–MAYBE AN EXCEPTIONALLY DEEP MEDITATION.
IN ANY CASE, THESE BEINGS ARE AROUND US ALL THE TIME IN THE WILD PLACES, I BELIEVE. I THINK I WILL MAKE MORE OF AN EFFORT TO  OPEN TO THEM AND THE WILD ANIMALS. AND NOT JUST IN THE WILDS. FOR I HAVE NOTICED THE TREES AROUND MY HOME SENDING ME COMMUNICATIONS–WHEN I AM OPEN.
AND IT’S NNOT JUST THE ANIMAL KINGDOM I HAVE THESE EXPERIENCES WITH. I HAVE A SMOOTH RIVER ROCK I SLEEP WITH EVERY NIGHT. AND HE  “SWEATS” WATER WHEN I FIRST GET IN BED AND PUT MY HAND ON HIM!–OR PUT HIM ON MY BELLY. I THINK HE HAS A VERY ADVANCED CONSCIOUSNESS; A BLISSED OUT ONE.
WHAT AN ADVENTURE LIFE IS!
i miss that as well. out here  on the island? i had a few experiences with deer… then, they [the wild life officials] started the yearly shooting, killed 15 or so.. and i haven’t seen a deer track since. i’m grateful to have experienced what i did and sad at the empty space i feel where they were.. i can only say that i do not ‘understand’ why people are compelled to try and shoot ‘all’ the deer. feels so male brained.  so now i have my connections with birds.. similar as on the river in South Barrington where i had birds flying by at eye level. eagles, great blue heron, geese,
THAT IS AWESOME! I HAVE NEVER HAD THAT. JUST AN OCCASSIONAL ONE FLYING CLOSE OVER HEAD.
now it’s the little birds in my ‘courtyard’ i am blessed with and crows. lots of crows out here and a few ravens. a hawk that comes around and i saw the snowy owl.
woke around 4:30, noticed when i walked by the stove a bit ago it was 4:44. angels!
KEEP HAVING A MAGICAL DAY…
LOVE B

 It often seems to me as if poverty in America is about being right brained–or Feminine-minded. The male warrior mind dominates in our culture–and in the world culture for that matter. It is something men often do purposively and that women ALLOW unconsciously for the most part.

But the right hemisphere of the brain is extremely valuable. When people are in it they are more compassionate first of all. They can feel each other’s humanity and emotions much more easily. This makes them kinder.

The left hemisphere is about individuation, independence and separation–which we need. But which has run amok in the world–creating war after war and need for domination of others. It seems to the left brain that money and power are OUT THERE and limited. And that you have to grab it from someone else–or dominate someone else. This makes everyone very insecure.

Right now we need more of the Feminine mind–the right hemisphere of the brain. It is about Oneness, connection, family, tribe and children. When we are children we are very right brain dominant. We are also the closest to God that we will probably ever be in our lives. It makes us feel secure to know that God has an amazing safety net in place that we can all rely on–just by having faith in it and the goodness of the Universe.

As small children we are still feeling our own sacredness and oneness with God and everything else. We are focused in the moment and in details–which is a very relaxed and rich state.

Also when we are in the right brain we can be much more creative than when in the left. The left is about words, science and numbers etc. The right is about making art, dance, music harmonious relationships etc. Most importantly it allows a connection with our Higher Self and with God. Most churches these days talk about God–but few seem to actually EXPERIENCE this sacred aspect of themselves.

However, right brain abilities and people are not particularly valued in our culture. If someone feels they have low or no value, then they are not very likely to be able to earn a high or even middle income. Income has everything to do with self-valuation. So I suspect there is a high correlation between poverty and right brain dominance. People with strong compassion, artistic expression, psychic and intuitive ability, relational interests and skills and interest in animals and Nature, but without having turned any of that to a big profit, do not show up in Forbes magazine. But they are extremely valuable people.

 

I just watched Tavis’s panel discussion on CNN which included Suze Orman and Michael Moore, as well as several other luminaries in the world of social change.

Their political and social understanding was considerable, but they all lacked a full spiritual insight into the causes of poverty–and the solutions–to my mind.

What they didn’t seem to understand was that we live in a PSYCHOLOGICAL Universe. One that includes (but is not limited to) everything to do with poverty and wealth. They are both states of mind. The only thing that wealthy people have that poor people do not is a sense of personal power and a high degree of self esteem that allows them to feel that they deserve everything they can get and more.

There is plenty of everything to go around. And it will not take taxing the rich to get it. But it will take a shift in consciousness in everyone’s mind who does not have enough–or just wants more. It may also take a shift in the minds of the rich as well, for some of them are ignorant as well as to exactly how they actually became rich!

Some of the wealthy are under the misapprehension that they have to get money away from the populace and some think they have to keep it away from them as well, in order to have all they want. But truly, that is not how they got it or keep it. Again–they got it by feeling deserving and powerful.

There is endless abundance in the Universe. Money is psychological–it is just self valuation and valuation of others along with a sense of personal power.

Some of the panel members did mention the importance of having pride and self esteem towards the end–most notably Majora Carter–the only black woman on the panel.

She seemed the most right brained of all of them. Many low income people are right brain dominant, which causes them to feel that they do not fit very well into the prevailing paradigm of our culture–which is left brain dominant. But despite this “disadvantage”, they can still create all the wealth and “stuff that they want” AND in an even better way than the left-brainers have done so far.

Most people seem to believe that hard work or intelligence or force is necessary to get money. It is not. And this confusion has led way too many people to become overwhelmed by their efforts to earn a living.

We do not need to EARN a living. It is our birth right. We simply need to “ALLOW” a living.” This is explained well in the book “Ask and It Is Given” by Esther Hicks.

As is pointed out in the book the first thing a person must do to expand their income is to stay away from blame and anger towards the rich — or at least to move quickly beyond the anger. For if they want to be rich also, they must have good feelings about becoming rich and other people who are rich now.

I would hope that should Tavis do such a panel again, that he would include one of the many excellent spiritual teachers of “The Law of Attraction,” for an understanding of that is where the true solution to poverty lies.